I’ve wanted to jump in to Five Minute Fridays for some time now, but fear has held me back.
I’m not a quick thinker. Thoughts need to process and words take time and how could I write well in five minutes?
I so value you, this community.
With the barrage of words in our worlds and the clutter on our screens, I am so grateful that you would share some of your time with me, here, and I never want to waste it: your time, an opportunity, the ministry we can have one to another.
I think so often of you that there are a million great posts in my head and only a few here. Sometimes the words don’t come out right, so I don’t let them come out at all.
It’s fear, really.
I’m afraid. Afraid of wasting your time, afraid you won’t like me, afraid … those thoughts sound so silly when they are no longer in my head, but there they are.
I don’t write here because I’m afraid to write here.
Writing is harder than you think. There are a million voices that tell you why you can’t, why you shouldn’t, and that you’re just not enough. I’ve listened to so many of those voices, I don’t even know what mine sounds like.
But I made the decision and followed through. Today is the day I cast fear aside and write anyway. To start, I am jumping into Five Minute Fridays — to write, 5 minutes only, no editing, no over-thinking, just writing.
And what was the first thing I read on the Five Minute Friday page?
“To gain your own voice, you have to forget about having it heard.” —Allen Ginsberg
I want to find my voice, the one God gave me, not the one I think others want to hear. I know it will take time.
The music might not be pretty and my voice might shake, but I’m confident that I’ll get there.
I know I need to stop worrying about who is listening and what you’ll think.
I hope you’ll like what you hear. I hope that when you come here, you will be encouraged and challenged in a good way. I hope that you find this place to feel a bit like home — sometimes messy and unpredictable but always full of do-overs and fresh starts.
I pray that here you will find an abundance of grace and love. There is always a place for you … here.
Question for you:
For me it’s writing, but what about you? Where do you need to fight fear to find your voice?