It didn’t come out the way I wanted.
Short words kindled from a shorter fuse.
and when the explosion comes
and the words rip through,
hearts are hurt,
little minds made up.
I can’t take them back:
these anger words flung from my tongue,
my child down.
And Lord, I knew!
I knew the length of the fuse grew shorter
as the day stretched on.
Events and behaviors and reactions all tumbled and tired and taxed.
And, Lord, I tried!
I tried to slow down, stop short, hold my breath–
but the breath that I held only fed the spark
traveling the fuse,
fueling the fire
I don’t want my fuse to lead to a fire,
igniting the flames,
detonating the bomb.
I want my fuse to lead to You!
to sizzle, fizzle, fade away.
Lord, I want to give them grace.
Have you ever struggled with a short fuse and quick temper?
I’d like to blame it on lack of sleep, post-pregnancy hormones, and my need for a bit more margin, but the truth is, “out of the overflow of the heart, the mouth speaks” (Luke 6:45).
Don’t get me wrong, all of the explanations I just listed are valid and true, but so often I use them as excuses and brush past the real issues.
The truth is: “Man’s anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires” (James 1:20). I’ve been wrestling with that truth for many months now.
Lord, make me “quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to become angry” (James 1:19)!
Question for You:
What “short fuse” do you struggle with most?
Can you relate? Here are a few helpful resources I’ve found.
- Addressing Anger Journal
- Good and Angry: Exchanging Frustration for Character in You and Your Kids! by Scott Turansky and JoAnn Miller
- Overcoming Emotions that Destroy: Practical Help for Those Angry Feelings That Ruin Relationships by Chip Ingram
- Unglued: Making Wise Choices in the Midst of Raw Emotions by Lysa TerKeurst
- Are there any others you would recommend? Let me know in the comments below.